Feeling Yuk

 Hello Dear Friends!

Just wanted to write a short note and apologize for my lack of commenting on your blogs.

I have not felt very well for the past week and not spent very much time on spaces.

I suspect the stress of everything has caught up to me as I am extremely weak and tired,

nauseated, have a nagging headache and several other symptoms.

Stress and anxiety would explain most of what I’m feeling, but then I panic and start

thinking I’m having a heart attack or something and it just makes it all worse.

I know that long term stress and anxiety can cause crippling physical problems and panic disorders,

not to mention that half the time I think I’m going crazy.  Many of you know that I have been

under extreme stress for 6 months now with the custody battle of little Emma.

Now that I’ve attempted without success to diagnose myself, please keep my in your prayers.

I’m finding it extremely difficult to take care of Emma while feeling so physically and emotionally drained.

I have an appointment for a physical on the 30th of this month so hopefully they will run some test

that will ease my mind and assure me that I haven’t lost it (my mind that is).

I do enjoy visiting your guest books but I know I have not been diligent in commenting on your blogs.

As soon as I’m feeling better, I will get caught up with everyone! 


Love and Hugs,



32 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Beth
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 18:13:12

    Prayers for you Rhonda.


  2. Touch
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 18:19:39

    You\’re always in our thoughts and prayers, Rhonda. We\’ll have to be a little more persuasive with our friend upstairs. Rest and get better. We\’ll be here when you get to feeling more like yourself. I bet little Emma is trying to take care of Mommy as well.


  3. m60a3
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 18:24:34

    Stress can and does affect your health. Muscles tighten, causing headaches so violent that one would wish for a pain killer. Also this weakness you describe, lets see your not eating right, not sleeping, and your mind is working in overdrive. Girl I just don\’t know what to tell ya. Rhonda my friend, see your doc, let them run their tests and then have him/her give you something so you can relax and sleep at night when you need to. If you need to borrow the tank to drive over a couple of trees or toes or anything let me know. Not to worry about your friends here on spaces as we will be here should you need us. And there is always the Head Doctor, His office is always open.Peace to You and EmmaMark


  4. simon
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 18:34:00

    \’Yuk happens\’- Especially at demanding times. I have yet to \’know you\’ or your panorama of stuff going on ( don\’t we all have that from one extreme to another). But in this Blog alone you need to – frankly – forget about us ! Yes USE us as a sounding board/resource/or source of entertainment even (some people do that). But we shouldn\’t be your obligation when FAR more important stuff needs attention. Agreed wiht Tank. When your on a slope of fatigue as you mention- Time to out your hand up and say \’Sir – I need some help " – (Sir being Doc\’s/Health care etc)- That\’s what they are there for, espcially if you have a dependant ! Sleep well, and grab someone by the ear real soon ! Kind Regards Simon


  5. Adrian
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 18:42:29

    It\’s probably just anxiety! Get a good massage, hot showers! oh, lot of fresh real juice and water! :-)Be well,Adrian


  6. Angel eyes
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 19:00:35

    please do get things checked living with stress i know well and can cause other problems angel eyes


    Jun 24, 2009 @ 20:05:47

    I am sending prayers and lots of (((Hugs))) your way! Hope you are feeling better soon!!!! Love,Becky


  8. Sue
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 20:29:20

    Rhonda You just look after your self and Emma, and dont worry about us here, we will still be here when you feel well againSee your doc and let him do his test, i know it hard but try not to worry, and know that eveyone here is thinking of you and keeping you both in our heart, hoping your well soonTake careSue


  9. Kimmy
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 20:29:45

    Oh Rhonda. You need a huge weight lifted off you and I hope your appt. goes well and you can relax. This is def. not good for the body or soul. Let us know how it goes ok? Much love to you and Emma. (((hugs)))


  10. Jill
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 20:37:39

    Rhonda, you take care of yourself. Prayers for you, and Emma. Keep trusting in the Lord for your everything. Don\’t worry about commenting, sit back and enjoy… hot cup of tea?


  11. Jill
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 20:38:16

    beautiful flower, by the way, Rhonda 🙂 hope you feel better and that the appt. provides some answers.


  12. Patsy
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 20:51:54

    We love you too , take care of you , we will be here when you are up to it. Hugs, Pat


  13. Captain
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 21:36:09

    Oh Rhonda! No I didn\’t know about Emma. I know how stressful such a thing can be though. It sounds like neurlogical damage. Believe it or not, I recommend a chiropractor. Back and shoulder problems are just symptoms of something much deeper! I feel such a connection with you… Please take care of yourself and follow up on what I say. Take all the time you need. Speack when you feel well again. Whatever the outcome love, hold fast to that inner self so precious to so many here! Rhonda! Are you listening? Get well! Whatever we gain or loose in this life, remember the most important thing we still have is each other! KissesQ: xxx


  14. Lisa ♥
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 22:03:01

    Thinking about You Rhonda. I know and know well that there comes a time when there is a point when things pile up and the Shelf will break. Hoping you find some stress relief .Keeping you in my thoughts and Prayers. You have been a blessing to so many here and Please take sometime for yourself. Love and Hugs Lisa xo


  15. Tracey
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 22:27:50

    Aww, sweetie you ARE in a bad situation! You need all of the suggestions already mentioned – Dr., massage therapist and chiropractor! Take care of YOURSELF and it will be easier to care for Emma. We are here for you Rhonda – don\’t worry about us right now! Big, BIG, Hug coming your way.


  16. Dianne
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 22:49:16

    Rhonda I am so very sorry that you are going through what is probally the worst time in your life. It may seem unbearable but with help of others you will make it through to the other side. Get all the help you need for you and Emma. There were times when I thought I would never make it in my life but I did with the help of others including Dr.s . Counselors for my 2 little boys and myself, friends , family and The Lord . At one time in my life I too was a mess. One day I finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel. It is there even if you can\’t see it. Don\’t stop Believing. Hang in there , Rhonda. You can do it. When and if you run out of Faith, God is still there watching over you and Emma and He loves you so much and Hates what you are going through . I pray that God\’s Grace will see you through . There are many of us who really care and yes you are in our thoughts and prayers daily. You are never alone , Rhonda. Love and Hugs , Dianne


  17. Happy
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 22:51:28

    Dear Rhonda, I am so sorry to hear you don\’t feel well at all and so many symptoms to worry. Am aware of energy drain of legal stuff adding stress too and good wishes for E- I am hoping Doctor can help on 30th and you are in prayers. Take care of you first and I know the wanting to keep up with a space while not feeling tip-top but no need to GB until feel absolutely A O.K. Thank you for info about what is happening. And, again sending big smiles and healing vibes.


  18. Cynical
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 22:57:36

    Do take care of yourself. Stress, fear, and anxiety can worsen almost any condition and might be responsible for most of yours. I would be the first to tell you, though, not to just blame it on that and let it go. See a good doc and get real answers. Knowing the truth and what is really wrong can make a world of difference.Peace, Doc


  19. Kuskulana
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 23:16:33

    This may well all be a physical problem that is easily solved and no amount of prayer, self diagnosis, sympathy or prayer will help.If you haven\’t been to the doctor to get a full array of base lines after 40 do it now, not next week right now dammit.


  20. Harmony
    Jun 24, 2009 @ 23:45:28

    Rhonda I\’m so sorry to hear you\’re not feeling well. I\’m glad you\’ve got an appointment with the doc. Stress sure can makes us feel awful. Take care of yourself, rest as much as you can and just try and relax. You\’re in my thoughts and prayers.


  21. kevin
    Jun 25, 2009 @ 00:19:21

    Echoing the thoughts of some others here. One of the problems can be delaying diagnosis and stressing out even more because you\’re not sure what underlying health issues there may be. Get to your Dr ASAP for both expert guidance and the reassurance that provides. (end of lecture) best wishes…


  22. Here I Am
    Jun 25, 2009 @ 01:02:36

    I know that of which you speak…Its a long road and I have found no help from doctors. But do get the physical and tell the doctor everything you are feeling. I didn\’t have the same doctor each visit so was unable to confide in him. Its a loney road when you try and do it on your own. Your are in my prayer and healing thought go to you. Wamest hugs Carrie


  23. Jun 25, 2009 @ 06:44:00

    Dear Rhonda, You and Emma are in my thoughts. I know first hand what you are saying as I suffer myself from anxiety and panic attacks (which scare me too) and hate the thought of you going through this, as Carrie said, it is a long road. I know how hard it is to keep things going, meanwhile you are totally zapped of all energy. Please try to take good care of yourself! I will pray for you, as I am living testimony of our wonderful Lord and Saviour\’s healing powers. The doctors have found lesions on my brain and suspect Mutiple Scolrosis but can not diagnose it either. They call me a mystery woman, my response "Not to those who know God! I draw on the Lord\’s strength everyday. I will pray for you and Emma, when we pray stuff does happen!


  24. freckles
    Jun 25, 2009 @ 06:54:12

    oh bless you – i now exactly what it feels like ! gods girl – wow you too !i am trying to start doing yoga and maybe mediate/buddhism – which is hard as i am trying to slow breath and through also my nose- which i can\’t do well. but it helps – i am trying to pluck up the courage to start doing the things that make me panic – so god help us all !<big hug> ~x~


  25. account closed
    Jun 25, 2009 @ 08:07:58

    Rhonda, I do hope you are feeling better soon, try to do relaxing things, things that make YOU happy & remember there is always light at the end of the tunnel ! Take care, hugs xxx


  26. Curtis
    Jun 25, 2009 @ 11:32:20

    You are always in my prayers hon. Get well soon


  27. Dreamwalker
    Jun 25, 2009 @ 18:44:56

    Hi Rhonda, I will add you to my healing book… and will be saying a prayer fo you… When you feel stressed, take some really deep breaths and ask the angels to help bring that peace around you.. If you dont ask you dont get… As they wont interfere in our free will… So know that they are surrounding you at all times.. Just trust, and know that things will be fine… remember our thoughts create, so dont allow fear to creep in… You have Won your custody battle already.. Love and Light Dreamwalker xx


  28. Greg
    Jun 25, 2009 @ 19:38:46

    Hello Rhonda…You just take care of yourself and the necessities around you.Yes…Custody battles are very stressful and usually produce very ugly situations.Unfortunately, children pay the largest price in a family breakup.May peace be with you and this conflict resolved correctly and quickly.Be well…Greghttp://blogquest.spaces.live.com


  29. Joe
    Jun 25, 2009 @ 21:56:33

    I just thank God that you will keep hope as the anchor of your soul. The stress you\’re under is for sure tremendous as I can only imagine but I also believe that you have inner strength that will sustain you. Peace and grace to you my friend.


  30. Touch
    Jun 25, 2009 @ 23:10:07

    Hoping this finds you feeling better, home girl. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love to you and sweet Emma.


  31. No
    Jun 27, 2009 @ 00:28:41

    Keeping both Emma & yourself in my prayers. I went through a divorce when my sons were 13,15 & 17 years old. It tore me apart & they were teenagers then. Without belief & prayers I could not have kept my strength up…but I did & years later met the wonderful man of my dreams. A massive heart attack took him from me 14 months after we married…but I thank God for the time we did get to share together. I will never love like that again…but have a wonderful partner now for companionship. Love you my friend…lots of hugs always…x0x


  32. ǂ˚̴̃◦◦ÇÄTGËL åkã SK¥Å◦ᶽ˚̴̃ǂ
    Jun 27, 2009 @ 03:14:30

    Rhonda i missed this i just see it on clinical (Docs) page honey listen i can still summon that feeling of dread i used to get when a panic attack would hit me . Rhonda i got rid of them about 20 years ago it was terrble. If i was in the middle lane of traffic stuck on a highway i would have one i couldnt be left on my own i had to live with my mum i couldnt be let alone or i would make myself have another panice attack and my brother suffered with them too He had a bad one in a safari park once as we was all in the lion park and he kept thinking "What if i break down " with the kids in the car & lions around us . Rhonda i know a bit of what youve been through youve got all that on your shoulders too a secret heartache and were here for you rhonda all i can say is as i got older it left me all the fear and panic i hope you feel better today rhonda ill be thinking of you . Im going to find some scary grizzly bears and put them in your gb to cheer you up !And little emma Rhonda i dont really know the situation but your really going through it hun my thoughts are with you x


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